30 days of writing challenge — day 30: write about what do you feel when you write

3 min readOct 30, 2020
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how do i feel when i write? well, honestly, it’s quite a lot. A LOT; i feel…

free. calm. relaxed. serene. restful. blithesome.

i love writing ever since i was a teen. i think it was around that time in junior high school, where i still had lots of time reading books & ebooks, writing stories, poems and such things. going to the bookstore was my favorite activity to do when i went outside. it’s like, a must. i didn’t have to buy a book, i just needed to went there with my friends or alone. looking through those pile of wrapped books, but some of them are opened. fiction novels… comics… history literature… and so on. but if i don’t have time to go out, i mostly just reads my tumblr, wattpad and webtoon. yeah, those were my favorite apps on my phone (and i still have them until now, i’m more into medium and other form of social medias to reads and writes nowadays.)

writing to me is.. therapeutic. it helps me ease my mind whenever i feel (terribly) sad or under (so much) pressure or (deeply) mad at something or feel all of them at the same damn time. i write both manually and virtually. with my own handwriting in my journal and here in medium, or twitter. the feeling i get whenever i pour out my thoughts off off my mind somehow giving me the endorphin release. since endorphins act on the opiate receptors in our brains, they reduce pain and boost pleasure, resulting in a feeling of well-being. endorphins are released in response to pain or stress, but they’re also released during other activities like; eating, exercise, or sex. yes, those are true, and for me, writing is also a form of activity that helps me releases those freaking awesome endorphins.

the thought of “nobody cares what i think” has given me a whole lotta mood to write again and again and again. i’ve been writing everyday for a month, doing this challenge purely because i want to and it makes me feel good to do what i’m actually good at and what i purely love to do. nothing stopped me. i had my lazy days several times, but i get up and get back to my laptop and write again; just because… i like the feeling, you know? if you know you know.

and today, i feel really proud of myself. finally, i could finally be able to stick to what i’m saying and deadass finishes what i started. it’s not hard, but it’s not easy either way. and i will continue my writings. about literally anything. simply, because it makes me happy. and free. and it doesn’t hurt anybody.

and knowing there are people (except my lovely boyfriend who always takes time to read my writings, ily) who actually reads my medium just makes me even more thrilled and touched and and and i don’t know it’s just.. WOW. thx.




living life through the city’s owned traffic jam at its best and skyscrapers hitting the polluted sky, but surely trying my best to survive. cheers.