this might be a bit odd to write since.. i’m currently in a relationship? yeah.
but remembering those days when i was single (and happy) is a fun thing to do, since i’m a wild bird refusing to be caged and the urge to fly so freely rents free in my mind. i like having control of my own life and to be frankly speaking, i hate being controlled. i know the discomfort of being prohibited, suppressed in various way, being accused of things that do not necessarily happen. being in a toxic relationship once taught me many things and as a very positive person, i took them all as my life lesson for the upcoming future self and my future relationships.
but let me tell you the truth; being single is not ALWAYS happy. sometimes (or most of the times) you feel lonely and desperate for attention and the worst thing is, there’s no one by your side. i mean, if you have those friends that always got your back and make sure you’re never alone then that’s a great thing to have, because not all of us is being given by that fortune.
i can be a wild, idiotic donkey during the day but a depress, lone owl during the night because when the dark hits the surface; it’s pretty hard to get rid of it. it’s like some part of yourself just know the right time to hit the floor and you can not do anything other than letting them consume you.
but, once the sun hits the wall and the birds chirping and the clouds welcomes you; you feel alive again and understand that everything’s gonna be okay.
